Mindful

the first thing i should mention?...i am way to lazy to push the shift key to make an upper case letter...sorry if this annoys...you will have to adapt...i am way to old and cranky to change now...

my friends, elly and chris are trying to have a baby...they will be wonderful, thoughtful, involved parents...wish it wasn't so difficult for them...but wishes don't add up to jack shit, so as their friend, i will encourage and support them as best i can...whatever the hell that means...mostly i am going to go visit for a very long time, right about the time elly's morning sickness kicks in...i can position a barf bucket and hold back hair with the best of them...they are doing everything they can to make sure they become parents...i am awed by their bravery...

i have spoken to mary margaret about the different stages of ivf, but it has finally penetrated my thick skull...she don't really want to hear it...i don't fully understand, but i will try not to draw her into what has been a very sad journey for chris and elly...the loss of their first little boy, matthew russell, broke the heart of anyone who heard the story...mary must feel the pull of wanting her own baby...ivf isn't an option for her... so, while elly feels cheated by fate because of having to use ivf in order to have any hope of a child...mary margaret doesn't even have that... so anyway, i was thinking... i will be more mindful of mary's continuing sense of loss and to remember what it feels like...when hope is lost...